Wow, been almost 2 years ... too much has happened, hmmm ..... guess I'll write later then .....:)

Oooohhh ... braces ....

Two days ago, I woke up in the morning with aches all around my body. My neck, my back, my weist, my legs, aaaaarrrrrggghhhhh ......... !!! And I had to sit down in front of computer for 8 hours, cos that's my job, can you imagine that :(
After going home from work, still not free from the painS, I went to my dentist, and he put a brand new strong wire on my braces, in exchange of the old flexible one. And the result is ...... my teeth hurts like hell, aaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrggggghhhhhhhh ........ !!!!!!! and it caused my head to feel as if beaten by a hammer everytime I stand up or when I sit down or when I talk too loud or laugh too hard :(( so I ended up sleeping at around 2 am and got to wake up the next morning at 6 T_T
Yesterday morning, I woke up lazily with all the aches still working together to attack me, got to brush my teeth very very carefully and the worse thing is .... I can't eat anything not even rice, so I ate cereal mixed with coffee (i don't like cereal) for breakfast, mashed potato instant for lunch and vermicelli noodle (aka misua) for dinner, but still couldn't chew, so I just swallow it (or them ??? whatever ... ) and turned up sleeping late at night, again, with my body temperature rose a little bit (37, 2 degrees)
This morning ...... thank God, my neck, my back, my weist, have all turned "normal" again, but still my teeth aren't doing any better. Soooo .... I had to go out to buy chicken porridge for my lunch, and still don't know what to eat for dinner tonite T_T

So much sacrifices for health, orrrr ....... for appearance???

mmmmm

Naaahhhhh ........ for 1,5 years of wearing this braces, I only got the chance to "experience" this twice, once at the first time I wore braces, and this is the second time. Other than that, it's ok tuh .... and ..... other positive side effect .... it'll help me on my diet, kekekekekek ...... ^_^

Lili Vs Lala

A song by Oppie Andaresta called "Lili Vs Lala"

Lili habiskan waktu setiap hari untuk membentuk tubuhnya
Lala habiskan waktu yang dia punya untuk memperkaya jiwanya

Lili sibuk permak wajah sana-sini, menyulap diri seperti barbie
Lala sibuk mengolah kegelisahannya, bersyukur dengan apa yang dia punya

Lili pantang untuk menginjak tanah, jadi hitam, kotor dan berkeringat
Lala terbang bebas kemana dia suka, berteman dengan dunia

Lili letih karena selalu jaga wibawa, terperangkap label di tasnya
Lala membuka luas2 hatinya, menyapa semua manusia

Lili jadi gamang dan tak terkendali, menipu hati tak tahu yang dicari
Lala selalu wajar dan jadi membumi, temukan rumah jiwanya

Which do you prefer ... ?
I believe many would choose Lala but ... why not both? hehehe

Cheerful posts

Hehehehe ..... I just realized .... all my past posts sounded .... sad ^_^
Guess my friend Coolz was right, I used this blog to ease my "bete-ness" hahaha ....

Well, unfortunately, lately that's how I feel .... although today I feel a little better :)

I'll write something "cheerful" soon, just wait ... :)

My life ....

Got this quote from an internet site:

"Never forget that life can only be nobly inspired and rightly lived if you take it bravely and gallantly, as a splendid adventure in which you are setting out into an unknown country, to face many a danger, to meet many a joy, to find many a comrade, to win and lose many a battle."

Annie Besant English

Such an inspiring thought .... considering my decision to move to Jakarta, the big metropolitan capital city of Indonesia, after all these years (I meant all my life, all 24 years) living in Surabaya (the second biggest city in Indonesia but such a bad comparation with the first city - Jakarta - coz it was very less "big" and "modern"), under the same roof with my parents with all the conservative way of thinking and life they have. Gosh, I'm 24, have my own job, drive my parent's (not my own :) car, and still have to deal with grumpy faces when I go out at night after working hours especially if it's more than twice or 3 times a week .... phew ....

That's why, I am used to living an ordinary life, around ordinary people, with an ordinary routinity, doing ordinary activities and thinking ordinary things. Sooooo .... it's kinda big thing for me to move to jkt. It was a tough decision to make for crying out loud ...... but I know it's worthed, coz there ..... I could try to "spread my wings and fly" (just like one of my friend's suggestion).

Hmmmmm, wish me luck .... pray for me .... that's all I need for now I guess .... Only God knows what's best for me, and it's not always the same as what I want, and that what makes it difficult =p (or even worse ... don't know what God wants and don't know what I want either .............................................................................. @_@

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Melancholic moment

Hmmm .... today something reminded me of those times way back in high school, the good and bad ones, the happy and sad ones ... with the pile of other things in my mind and so many must-reply-asap sms ... gosh ... i felt sooooo .... "jutek" --> how do you say that in english? :p

The thoughts of relationship and friendship came across my mind often lately ...
And it just swimming and swimming and keep swimming in my head (like The Corrs said in "the Radio" or ............ like Dory said in Finding Nemo "just keep swimming, just keep swimming" ^_^ I love that fish *hahaha*)

As few of you know, I'm a left-brain user alias a logic and realistic person.
But I'm also a sensitive person in some cases.
So it gave me a quite hard time to deal with the "emotional thing" with people while I'm in the middle of an emotional struggle within myself. Confuse? haha, me too :(

Soooo .... what else to say .... I don't know.
Too much things on my mind, too much burden in my heart and no "waste line"
Phew ...

WHERE DOES LOVE GO?

Got this from a friend of mine.
I guess it's the question of many people around the world, including me.
My favorite is
"Must one lose love to know it's priceless?"
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WHERE DOES LOVE GO?

If the heart is the place love comes from
Then where does love go when it dies?
Back to the heart where it came from
Or does it turn into tears in the eyes?

But even if one knew the answer
What would one possibly gain?
Would the knowledge of where love had gone to
Ease the heartache and the pain?

Love……love, what is this feeling?
Why is it born if only to die?
And when it leaves you, what's left inside
To make the heart glow, and leave tears in the eyes?

Why is it one can't realise
What a blessing a true love can be?
Must one lose love to know it's priceless?

Where does love go when it leaves us?
This question will always remain, for we will never know
The answer until we find love once again